Ever Before Me

O Mighty Yahweh, LORD of all, Three in One, Glorious Trinity... my King;
Do I fail you, yet always you keep me. Why for but a wonderous mystery, that of your particular grace upon your people. Indeed all I ever do is fail! How pitiful! What a joke it almost seems! What, for how close I can come to righteousness, even the closest I come, yes no matter how close I come, sin is ever before me. Like a damned madman I am pious, but on the inside war with good and evil. What a joke indeed... What more of a pitiful joke it would be if I did not have you my gracious Lord! What a sad existence! Always captive to that nature wherein I was born! Trying to do good but never taking that guilt away of which man knows the condemnation he deserves.

What a wonderful wonderful thing you have done! Hallelujah! Hallelujah! Though I still wage against evil within me I am by no means a slave of that evil, and your very own Spirit lives in me, giving me all I need to live the holy life I am transferred to! Not only this, (though this mystery is enough to make one ponder for days), O Jesus you stand continuously as my Great High Priest, perfect atonement, clean forever due to your spotless intercession. I am alive because I am dead in you, Saviour. And in this hope only am I saved from myself and even your terrible judgement.

Indeed, I am only alive because I have been crucified in death with you, and you are ever before me. Amen.